no its not just you. i have similar feelings. I do not wear make up. never have. someone is gonna notice something is wrong with me any way with my big lip and grossed out ear
its never made sense for me.
I can barely stand to wear moisturizer anyway. i wear lip balm and clear mascara.
all i can say is one day at a time. I don't have the resources either but i would like to think that treatment will improve my life. Then i also tell myself it should be in me whether i have a birthmark or not.