We haven't heard from you in a coon's age!
I just realized something: in all the time I've "known" you on the forums, I've never really heard you talk about your strengths! I'd love it if you sat down alone and really thought about what your strengths are and start building on those. I wonder if you really knew what kind of job would capitalize on what you're good at, if you could go about getting one of those.
Are you good at maths? Do you read well? Can you paint? Do you like to do crafts? There IS something that you're good at and there IS a way to fit that skill set into a job that you like and are excited about.
I do know that you are kind and compassionate and extremely patient. Start with the positives!